The One Thing Getting in My Way of Contentment

Guilt.

I didn’t do enough crafts with my son.  I got bored playing for hours with him and wanted to enjoy and relish the time more.  I could write more, read more, crochet more.  I could work out.  I could use my time better.

So many things I could be better at.  So many things I felt I wasn’t good enough at.

And I wondered why I didn’t feel like my positive self.

I was letting negative thoughts run rampant in my mind.  I had let them take over, host a party, and celebrate their success at making a new home in my mind.

When had this happened and how had it started – I don’t know, but I knew it had to stop.

Stopping the Negativity

I took a day to refresh and find encouragement – something I hadn’t done in a long time.

It was enlightening.

Plenty of people felt the same way, experienced similar frustrations, and did their best to find solutions that worked for them.

I learned I actually was doing a lot with my son.

I was already managing my time well and had a lot of structures in place.

I had valuable things to contribute in my writing too.

The most important lesson was

to give myself a break and stop feeling guilty.

I needed to put everything in perspective.  Life was good.  I was doing fine and I certainly didn’t need to beat myself up about it.

Moving Forward

So how did I kick those negative house guests out of my mind?  I tore down all their negative flyers.

I didn’t need to believe the negative thoughts that papered my mind.  Instead, I replaced the negative thinking with positive encouragement.

I took time out to step back and reassess.  Sometimes we don’t even realize how our thinking is impacting our feelings and actions.

It may take time to retrain my brain, but I know I’ll get there and be all the happier for it.

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