I’ve carried a yearning in my heart for years of values, traditions, and lifestyles. I was continually drawn to small town life, community, appreciation of nature, simplicity, traditional entertainment like music, crafts, reading, etc, cooking with local and unprocessed foods, preserving foods, homesteading, and being away from worldly influences.
I realized over the years I sought different ways to fulfill that longing. I read books about small towns to escape. My favorite movies and tv shows were about small rural towns and close knit families who focused on family and tradition. I tried to engage in the local community by going to lectures, pursuing a ride share (but that wasn’t practical), going to cooking classes, learning how to knit and embroider, becoming obsessed with the environment, learning an instrument, volunteering at a sustainable farm an hour away, and spending hours researching on the internet and reading blogs. None of it fulfilled me but made me longing stronger. Ultimately most fell by the wayside and I did not continue to pursue them.
It wasn’t until I joined the Orthodox Church I realized I was backwards. I was trying to have all these things fill my heart but really it was God would needed to fill my heart. My focus was all wrong. If I loved God then everything else would flow from that. I needed to open to God providing opportunities to fulfill those longings for His purposes.
When I was open crafts became scrapbooks for others to encourage, music became singing in the church choir, cooking became cooking for others, internet became finding Godly encouragement, and nature became walks and poetry. I was more fulfilled and no longer searching. The yearning left me because God had filled my heart and I was using my passions for His purposes.
May you find ways to let God fill your heart and fulfill the longings of your heart.
Questions to Ponder:
1. What do I yearn for?
2. What routines do I have to focus on God?
3. Do I focus more on God or my yearning?
4. Can I be open to where I am now and how God can use the present to provide me with opportunities to fulfill His purposes and even fill the yearning in my heart?